No matter the pain I will still exercise, update on health
Nov 2, 2018
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this is my story and welcome to it
good morning you guys and welcome to
crazy Thursday Maya did not have school
today for grading period today in
tomorrow so he gets to spend a couple
extra days at home which I love
anyways let's see I'm gonna go and grab
me a drink all he had working today he
had to be out of here at 6:30 okay hold
on Ezra hold on okay
anyway so you had to be out of here
really early this morning
Omar I decided that he was going to wake
up the same time dad was walking out the
door
so mommy has been up since 6:30 but
that's all right I got some extra
cuddles from him which was great I never
get to cuddle with him in the mornings
but you got to snuggle with me and we
watched paw patrol drink and then go
home
doctor's office called and they want to
see me tomorrow
Oh
anyways so they want to see me this art
well they want to see me this morning
but I was just like there is no way I
was like my husband has at work and I am
NOT dragging two preschoolers into a
doctor's office that ain't gonna happen
so she said well can we get you in
tomorrow that's like yeah that's fine
but my primary is absolutely packed so I
have to see a different doctor which
percent thrilled about but it is what it
is about it so I'm feeling much better
today as in like I don't feel a sick my
leg is still killing me
but I was reading online this morning
that they say that it could take
anywhere from seven to ten days there
was one lady that literally it sounds
like she's had it for a long time and
she's still hurting to this day and I'm
thinking I know i've had cellulite is
before and I never hurt like that long I
mean it's sore don't get me wrong but it
has never like lingered that long so
uh but what I think it is is because
cellulitis attacks the tissue in your
body
wherever the inflammation happened so in
my case it was my leg so it attacked all
the tissue in my lower part of my lake
so now all that tissue has to rebuild
itself and so of course it's gonna hurt
and feel like somebody kicked the crap
out of my leg and it's like almost kind
of bruised a little bit which makes
sense because it's been trauma I mean
there's like clearly it's and it's still
like swollen it's extremely yeah yeah
baby it's still extremely swollen which
drives me nuts but I know it will pass
and I know that once the inflammation
goes down and everything subsides I know
that it will be better so I'm not like
crazy worried about it it just
you know it's tender though so any type
of anything that brushes up against it
or anything oh I just want to scream I
thank God the kids have been very
careful with me which has been a blast
Sina itself so they have been very
cautious with you know mommies lay they
know to be careful and they know mommy's
not feeling well so they've been extra
good and that makes me feel really good
that you know even they've been really
good so anyways I'm just gonna go like I
said get me a drink get the kids a
little tree or something just cuz
they've been really good this morning
and then I don't want to overdo it and
all he's gonna try and make his day as
fast as he can so that he can get home
as he needs to pick up my other
antibiotic I haven't even started my
second antibiotic yet
I don't want it I don't want to get that
car wash today baby cuz it's been
raining okay but they put me on now and
I Hey hey Omar Omar Omar let's not be
like that okay I know you're just
playing but let's not be nice that's
nice let's not be mean okay thank you
anyways I will check in with you guys in
a little bit I just want to give you
guys a little so anyways I will check in
with you guys in a bit
okay I just got out a Dollar Tree I
stopped really quick because I am trying
to get a couple of crafts done while I
am kind of laid up but I was lacking a
few items and I've been patiently
waiting for the Christmas stuff to come
out because I needed a red charger and
if you don't know what a red charger is
it's those red like decoration plates I
guess I don't know I'll show them to you
I get home but anyways no I wasn't
believing pursuit okay we'll get it when
we get home okay
anyways no I'm not feeling 100% but I
needed to get out of the house you guys
I am going to okay let her finish it so
I loaded up the kids and went to Dollar
Tree and I wasn't gonna take them in cuz
I was just gonna do a quick run in and
out okay this right here Maya here give
her her chocolate
so anyways here so Omar DUI your M&MS so
anyway so I just was like you know I'm a
little bit and so I did I walked around
for an hour a little actually a little
over an hour a little over an hour I
walked but I needed to I you know what I
can't just sit anymore you know even if
I'm hurting I have to press for through
it but funk foggy not because I'm hot
anyways I can't just sit even if I am
hurting because I am afraid if I sit for
too long I'm gonna start stiffening up
and my back's gonna start getting back
to square one and I'm not I can't I
can't do it gosh
anyways so my my fear is if I don't stay
active in some kind of way that I'm
gonna I'm gonna regret it so I was like
no I need to get a couple things today
and I'm I'm gonna go because I need to
get out and move around and that's
exactly what I did
and I feel so good like I feel good I
mean my leg is throbbing it hurts an
Oklahoman takes some pain meds for it
but I just I desire this healthy moving
lifestyle and I desire so bad to lose
weight that nothing absolutely nothing
is going to hold me back it's not going
to cause me a road block you know
because before I used to use that as a
crutch oh I'm not feeling good or oh you
know I have cellulitis so I need to stay
sitting on my chair for two weeks and
have everybody you know cater to me and
you know all this stuff and it's like
but I've come to a reality in my life
that that's not how I'm gonna get better
and even though I am hurting okay honey
even though I'm hurting I can't I really
really really what what cup what does
she want
okay hold on this her we're going home
wait what cop Oh make up okay hold on
it's in the backpack I was trying to
figure out what you're saying you're
saying my cup and I'm like your cup is
sitting right next to you I don't know
what you're not seeing anyways I just
know that moving and staying active is
going to only help me build more
strength and in reality even though it
hurts it's also helping this infection
because it's keeping my blood pumping
and that's what I need is for my legs to
have moments so that I can work this
this swelling down because the swollen
is telling my lake the worst because I
haven't been swimming for so long that
now it's like so for sure I was just
like no I'm gonna get up I'm gonna go
and I just did I just slowly walked they
didn't race around the store like a
maniac but I just walked in circles down
every aisle and you know walked in every
circle and I did it for an hour and then
I was like the kids were starting to get
like bored because they're like oh we're
seeing the same scenery for the tenth
time over so they were like ready to go
so I got out of there real quick because
no town was on its way but I still feel
really proud of myself for not just
staying at home and you know not moving
and allow
this infection to be a crutch for me to
be lazy and just sit around because as a
as a pain that I am you would think that
I would just be laying around but I I
can't do it I can't no I mean I wanted
to the night I got out of the hospital I
wanted to like go walk around a Walmart
or something just to get some exercise
and that's how eg I am to exercise so I
know that I'm on a good route to where I
gotta get to it's just anyways I'm gonna
stop and go get me a tea because I
haven't had one
a few weeks now I am dying for one so
I'm gonna go get me a tea
you guys I would never suggest the
adhesive Nell's
they leave like a film of glue over your
Nell it is so disgusting and it's like
everything sticks to it so like fuzz
balls you name it all over the place and
it's like rolls that's all glue like
gooey glue and I even like
both tip and it's still not nothing it's
disgusting
oh never ever ever in my life use that
type of crap again
I've never used it before that is the
first time first of all they don't build
up before nothing second of all they
leave that nasty crap on your nails and
third of all they're just and they're
expensive like literally I got the ones
I got on sell for like 370 or three
something like that but literally
literally
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they're crap
and most the time they're like 8 bucks
what is taking so long
ok you guys I am NOT going to show my
face today because well not right now
anyways I just got home my leg is
hurting so bad it's got like little
blisters popping up on it you can see
that very clear there are tiny little
blisters and they hurt so bad so I am
just gonna rest my lake from to for the
rest of the day but I definitely want to
show you guys what I picked up from the
Dollar Tree so that way you can see what
I got so I'm gonna just jump into it
right now and we're gonna try and get
through this kind of quickly but I
picked up these two candle holders I am
so excited to use these for a DIY that
I've got planned they are so pretty like
look at how sparkly they are they almost
look like fourth of July well this one
does because it looks like you know I
mean you could use it as a sporty like
as a snowflake or something but it looks
like a firework almost and then the
green is the exact same so I'm really
excited to put those together with a DIY
that I've got planned
I'm gonna try and get for these kind of
quickly I picked up these two stickers
they and then I also picked up this one
I'm going to use these all for DIYs
these ones are a solid sticker so
they're all connected there's the
picture so it kind of shows you that
it's all connected and then also this
one is also connected you might be able
to use the gems by themselves but I
that's not my plan I plan on using it
all together but I'm really excited to
show you guys what I have in an idea to
use with these I picked up five of these
and the reason for that is because with
my business that I'm gonna be starting
you know the first couple of times you
might have oopsies
I would rather make an oopsie on a
dollar tumbler versus spinning you know
quite a bit of money on a tumbler so and
these ones are 14 ounces they are BPA
free so I mean you could not another
green beret or brand you could not
I mean beat it honestly they're really
good and they're nice the lids are
really nice and they're the drinking
hole is
you could put a straw in it I mean
they're honestly really nice so for $1 I
couldn't pass it up so I picked up five
of those actually to start my savings on
what I'm gonna be doing I picked up two
of these mirrors for a DIY that I have
planned to us
dusty anyways a DIY that I have planned
for these so I did pick up two of those
I picked up picked up six of these three
red and three of the silver I have some
amazing DIY ideas that I want to do with
these but I picked up multiple of the
red because I don't think bread is gonna
be out all year round I've not seen the
red ones I usually see the gold or the
silver but these ones the red ones I I
was waiting to see if I Mars would come
out with it which you guys I walked
around probably a good three or four
times at the store looking for the red I
did not find these until I was checking
out and I looked underneath the cash
register area and they were right there
I was like oh my gosh you guys doing out
the red so I picked up three of them
because you can also pull these out and
use a DIY for Valentine's Day so that's
another reason I tooked up a red I
picked up this bull and I have a DIY
plan for this as well
so stay tuned you're not gonna want to
miss my DIY is that I've got planned for
those I picked up two of the LED candles
okay where's my 120 total hours they are
I love these things that are light so if
they get knocked over they're not gonna
break but you can do amazing DIYs with
these so that's why I went ahead and
picked up two of those I picked up this
not first earring will but for another
DIY I'm excited to show you guys what I
have an idea to do with these I'm stuck
I picked up two green Bath scrubby's and
again another DIY idea I cannot wait to
show you guys
I picked up three of these hangers they
come with the screws on them so how
convenient I picked these up to either
use for my hair ties or I can hang
different projects on it that I'm trying
to let dry not quite sure exactly what I
have in store for these but you can't
beat for a dollar and they're pretty
good well-made so I mean I went ahead
and picked up three of them just because
they'll they'll be used in my house I
picked this up yes my child
made me mr. Omar as friend Omar because
they feel like they're spiders so
without having the ugly spider face they
get their spider so I brought them up a
spider I picked up they're starting to
put out all the Christmas stuff so that
was so exciting for me because they get
like so many pretty colors in their
ribbon and stuff so I picked up two of
this one matching picked up a white with
like a sparkle don't know if you guys
can see it but sparkly picked up a red
dark red with sparkle and then a like a
dark gray with sparkle so excited to
cook those up coz you can always use
those with DIYs see I picked up these
guys for another DIY project that I've
got planned I love this one he's so cute
look I love it so I got the legs I got
him and then I picked up him as well so
I'm excited to make him and part of a
DIY my kids will stay away from him that
might be up this this is a 6-pack of
where you can put your paints and stuff
but it comes with six for a dollar I'm
always looking for things to put my
paints and when I'm doing my DIYs so I
picked that up because I'm tired of
using my fishes
and I picked up some gyms I have not
seen these ones at my Dollar Tree so
when I picked those up because you never
know when you can use these always come
in handy to have extras of stuff that
you're looking for so you don't have to
stop your whole project and run to the
Dollar Tree just to find something and
then to find out that they don't have it
or something would be quite frustrating
cuz then you got to go to like Michael's
and pay like double the price here are
buttons again you never know when you're
gonna need them so I always put that
type of stuff up because then I'm
obsessed you guys I am obsessed with
their phone covers so I picked up two
more I got this one it is so cute
and I picked up this one and you know
honestly you can't even get these as
cheap on Weston email because wish has
raised their price so much that now
they're not that cheap so for me I'm
just like heck yeah I'll take cheap for
anything I picked up some Nels gonna try
them see how they work I picked up a
couple the other day from Dollar Tree
and literally they lasted me maybe an
hour if I'm lucky and they started
splitting and really cheap so but I've
also picked up other notes from there
and I had a really good experience with
them so I'm excited once I can figure
out how to get this gel glue off my
nails that was left from the nails that
I put on so frustrating then I'm going
to try a set of these and just see how
they work I might put a gel product over
the top of it like clear just to kind of
maybe strengthen I'm a little bit I
don't know we'll see I also picked up a
thing a hair ties cuz you can never go
wrong in a house with hair ties not in
my house anyways because to me it's like
always running out of them I picked up
some pins never go wrong with that
enough pins especially my house again
I hate hate
all the new kids and I don't have any I
picked up these two glasses again
they're going to I can get it just lay
down
they're going to be used for DIYs so
you'll want to stay tuned to so I can
show you what my plan is to do with
these I love the colors so thankful they
don't get broke I picked up a little mr.
snow me on picked him up and I'm gonna
also use him in a DIY of mine so I'll
show you what his job is gonna be I also
picked up this little plate and again I
will be showing you guys what I will be
using with it so definitely check into
my craft corner Tuesday's that's why
kids are and last but not least I picked
up this make makeup bag but I actually
am going to be putting all my medicines
in it because I've been on so many
medications with oh thank you yeah see
mom's using the thermometer I've been on
so many different medications lately
that keeping them all together and stuff
has been pretty proven to be pretty hard
so I went ahead and picked up this bag
to put all my medications in and that
way you know if I can't get to the bag
because I'm not able to give up or
something I can just send Jeremiah or
Olli and be like go get my colorful bag
and it will have all my medicines in it
so they don't have to sit and try and
figure out what medicines I need and
other than that is thank you guys that
is my haul but I just want to show you
guys what I got yes it felt good to get
out and walk but now I am paying the
price for it so I'm gonna take a little
rest get some medicine on board so that
way I'm not hurting so bad good evening
I haven't checked in for a while you
guys sorry I ended up taking
my vPro from some tylenol when it came
back from Dollar Tree because I was
really read and like like hot to the
touch and my leg was throbbing really
bad so I was like crap you know what am
I supposed to do so I went ahead and
took some medicine well no I took my I
took my temperature I was a hundred and
two and then I took the temperature of
my leg and it was 101 oh so I took some
medicine I took four Tylenol one
ibuprofen and rested rested rested right
now it's not hurting as bad it comes and
goes though if I get up and start really
moving around or doing anything stupid
then it starts to hurt I don't know I
this clearly is just something that
needs to bypass itself quickly my
doctors called me today and I have a
doctor's appointment tomorrow at 4:45
they're concerned because I still get
getting a spiking fever and the little
blistery things on my leg are popping
not by mine not by my doing but they're
just popping so it's like now I have
like open wounds on my leg well I mean
I'd they're not like visual to the eye
the blister thingies are but you I mean
it's not like gaping holes in my leg or
something but it's just like red little
polka dot so you guys have seen it but I
keep getting fluid on my hand like if I
rub by it so I know that the little
blustery things are popping and that's
not good so I have it officer pointed
out for free five
and then my doctor or the nurse called
me today from the hospital to do a
follow-up since I was in there and I
told her that you know I'm doing okay
you know I'm still in a lot of pain and
my legs still bright red / purple that I
keep getting the spiking headaches are
spiking fevers and so she said that the
culture urine test came back and it
tested positive for e.coli and oh my god
I will spell it and put it on the screen
what it is because I don't know how to
pronounce it
but it's I can't I I honestly don't even
know how to say it so I'm not gonna try
so anyways I am running two more
infections in my body and so I don't
know what's gonna happen I just you know
I guess it's so frustrating cuz it's
like I'm taking care of myself and I'm
being so cautious about what I'm putting
in my body and I am losing weight and
I'm staying more active than I ever have
in my life in multiple years
oh one it's like I feel like the more
I'm trying the less I'm getting kicked
back are like the more I'm getting
kicked back and so it's just agonizing
sometimes because it's like why like why
is this happening now when you know I
don't want to be pushed down and I don't
want to be locked in the house and I
want to get out and I want to do things
with my kids and now I'm you know
dealing with you know cellulitis in my
leg and you know two infections in my
bladder and it's like what else can go
wrong please don't even say that Amy
before something finally gives so I
don't know I don't know I'm just
kind of at a loss like I just I really
don't know what I'm gonna do so we'll
find out from the doctor what he wants
to do tomorrow there's a high
possibility they might want to put me in
the hospital so they can just do IV drip
antibiotic depending on how my body is I
guess it's responding to the antibiotics
that I'm already on the one that I'm
putting on the screen the name of
you
they doubt I googled it that because
I've never even heard of the name so I
was like okay Google what is this and it
to me I was reading that it's a new
super bug or something like that and it
doesn't respond they don't have an
antibiotic for it at this point so I
don't know what the heck that's supposed
to mean just like my name but again I'm
not gonna let this not gonna let this
get me down like I'm not going to I'm
not gonna allow this to control my
achievements that I've already made I am
NOT going to give up because you know
normally my in my old ways I would have
been just like f it I'm giving up I'm
gonna go back to my old ways and how
many what I want and I'm gonna just not
exercise and I'm gonna feel sorry for
myself and you know I'm gonna pity
myself and just throw a tantrum and on
the way I'm in a game you know 2530
pounds because why not I'm feeling bad
for myself and now it's like no you
don't have that option anymore Amy you
are not going to go back you are going
to continue to stand firm as hard as
that can be sometimes and you're gonna
do this you are going to do this and I'm
going to do this
there is no there's nothing in my body
that wants to go back to the old me I
don't want to be a person that gives up
on myself because in the end if I've
given up on myself then there's no hope
for me because it's
it's me that has to get myself through
this and you guys are all amazing and
support and the encouragement you guys
have no clue I think you guys do how
much of importance you guys have played
in this whole situation because this
could definitely have run into an uglier
way but I have not allowed it to and I'm
not going to allow it to this is going
to work out you know and once I am able
to really start working out you best
believe my happy little butt is going to
be working out and being serious about
it as it is right now I can only walk
and I have to even be obviously careful
with that because with having open
wounds in your leg you don't want to go
out too much public and take the chances
of picking up something that is in the
air that could get into one of them you
know the little sores and create a whole
another problem today when I went out I
made sure to wear tighter pants so it
just like kind of secluded my leg and I
wasn't I mean I was in there for an hour
but it wasn't like there was a lot of
people so I feel pretty oh pretty
confident that I was okay but it's
definitely you know I have to still
remind myself that I'm still in a
healing process it's not been very many
days and the I do need to rest but I
don't want to just sit either because
the fear sets in that if I'm gonna set
is that going to set me back because my
bones are gonna start you know briteling
themselves up so catch-22 but um so yeah
I just I am
I'll see what tomorrow brings with what
the doctor says for sure you guys are
coming along with me to the doctors
don't worry I will let you guys know
everything that is going on I will keep
everybody as well as I can
updated please please please
understand if I am not commenting back
quickly enough please know that I am
seeing everybody's messages I may not be
able to respond right this minute back
to you but I am seeing everybody's
precious and messages to me and I will
be responding because as you all know I
try and keep responding to every message
I love being able to touch base with
each and every one of you as you guys
are messaging me you know emailing me I
haven't checked my emails for a couple
of days so if there's anybody that's
emailing I am so so sorry but I will
check my emails I'll try tonight to
actually do that before I go to bed and
respawn back but I just don't want you
guys to think that I'm not reading
messages or that you know I'm going that
your guys's comments are going unnoticed
because every one of them are being
bribed by me and as I read them
sometimes I'm tearing up because you
guys mean so much to me and I just can't
thank you guys enough for again all the
support you guys are passing to me it
just is it's really keeping my spirits
high and it's continuing to make me feel
more confident and more strong that I'm
gonna get over this and it's just a hurl
and it's a test maybe to see if my
body's gonna just be like alright I did
what I could back to old ways but just
ain't gonna happen I just ain't ready
for it so yeah I am I'm 99% sure that I
will be back and running real quick that
one person that I'm not sure is if I
have to be on a special another medicine
to that might be stronger for my leg I'm
not sure I don't know well I Chi said
we'll find out tomorrow
where they want to go with this whole
fiasco with that and then with my
bladder infection well it's a UTI but
the bugs are in there pretty icky bugs
so and that could be why I've been
feeling a little bit of pressure down in
Mike my bladder area I was telling Ollie
the other day that I felt like I was
getting ready to start my cycle which
I'm not ready
I'm not due to start but I was feeling
really heavy on my stomach and so that
must have been actually that I was
coming down with a UTI and the weirdest
thing is is people will be like how do
you not know you have a UTI I guess
because I have such a high pain
tolerance because even my leg the nurse
was telling me today should I told her
that I went to Dollar Tree and walked
around and she was like wow and I was
like why and she's like because most
people with how far yours have gone you
don't see them walking around very much
normally they are up and off of it
because it's so painful and I'm like
well it is it hurts but I don't let pain
pull me down but I've lived my life with
so much physical pain between my back
and the infections in my legs and just
my weight in general has allowed me to
build such a high pain tolerance that
you know if anybody can go through a
c-section without taking pain meds
afterwards yeah that must tell you I
enjoyed No don't enjoy it but I've got a
high tolerance of it because even Ollie
said Amy you didn't make it sound that
bad the day that you went to the doctors
and if you would have I would have
gotten up and I would have taken you
myself but you sounded like you were
okay and I was like you don't like
worrying people I like just to keep it
inside and he's like well I'm your
husband and I need to know these things
because I can't fill it for you so I
need to know that I'm verbally so I can
help you in any which way I can I'm like
I know and so he's like stop being
stubborn and I'm like I think somebody
else told me that biker babe and
wannabes life but yes I do have a
stubborn ability to not put myself in
position where I need help
and I take it so anyways other than that
that was my day I pretty much have been
planted in this room on my bed all days
since being home from the dollar store
our Dollar Tree whatever it's home Olly
is preparing dinner we're not really
sure
what we're having I haven't eaten
anything - well excuse me I had
breakfast this morning us 838 8:30 and
it is now going on like almost 7:00
I haven't eaten nothing but that's
because I haven't had an appetite which
because I feel crappy so of course I
just don't feel like eating
um so anyways I am gonna close my vlog
so that I can get my room cleaned up and
get ready for dinner and then hit the
hay sack from there cuz I don't know
what tomorrow is gonna hold other than I
do in my doctor's appointment I probably
won't do a whole lot and just try and
stay off my leg as much as possible
tomorrow besides when I absolutely have
to get up and get in the car so anyways
as always I hope you guys enjoyed this
vlog I told they've been short and I
promise that they will get better they
will get longer until then though sweet
dreams you guys bye bye
